Hurt Like That - Song Intervention for Vulvodynia

What if a pop song could help millions of women who suffer in silence to speak of the
unspeakable and receive the care they deserve?

This was the idea for my Harvard Medical School Capstone project. With my final project, “Biosocial Barriers to Care – An Analysis of Social and Structural Barriers for Women with Vulvodynia + A Novel Song Intervention to Mitigate Stigma on Vulvodynia,” I explored barriers to care and developed a song to start a conversation on and mitigate stigma around Vulvodynia. 

About the Project

The under-researched, barely discussed, yet widespread chronic pelvic pain condition, Vulvodynia, affects around 1 in 10 women.

Blending personal experience with rigorous medical research, I created a research-led indie-pop anthem to tackle a stigma, which has silenced women for centuries. The yet unpublished research explores cultural as well as clinical forces that leave millions of women undiagnosed, dismissed, and silenced. The lyrics and melody aim to outline the complex facets of chronic pain, and specifically the stories and journeys of women affected. It turns this silence into a strong message of “on this road, you’re not alone”.

What is Vulvodynia?

This is the question I receive 99.99% of the time I talk about my project. So if you have never heard of it, no worries, this is exactly why I started the project!

 

Between 1 in 10 are estimated to have Vulvodynia, chronic vulvar pain without identifiable cause, that lasts longer than three months within their lifetime. The National Vulvodynia Association estimates that more than 14 million women are affected in the US alone. Despite the prevalence, nearly 50% of women affected open up to their doctors about their pain due to reasons like stigma, shame, or normalization of women’s pain. If they do a marathon of doctors’ visits begins, and more than 1/3 of women must see 15 or more doctors to receive a diagnosis, not to speak of treatment. 

 

The condition has significant implications on women’s quality of life, through the pain itself as well as the stigma around it. Women affected may experience vulvodynia through pain with intercourse, but also beyond, while wearing jeans, biking, or sitting for extended periods. Additionally, the condition majorly impacts women’s quality of life and mental health. Women report missing on average more than 18 social activities within 6 months, and 41% feel depressed. 

 

Research and medical training fall short. In a US study, 96% of medical residents did not feel adequately educated on this topic. Many women report experiences of medical gaslighting in a recent study: 40% of women with those disorders are not taken seriously or believed by their healthcare professionals, and 20% of women are told by their doctors to just drink alcohol to relax.

The result is millions of women suffering in silence. Many women endure painful intercourse out of feelings like shame and guilt, without opening up to their partners about their pain. The emotional toll includes anxiety, isolation, and a sense of brokenness.

Mentorship of The Late Jill Sobule

The creation of this track, an effort to bridge music and science with social change, was created as capstone for the Harvard’s Medical School’s “Media, Medicine & Health” program.

I was lucky that I was mentored by the late Jill Sobule, whose groundbreaking song “I Kissed a Girl” made history as the was the first openly queer song among the Billboard top 20.

I am honored that Jill worked with me on this project, unfortunately, one of her last. Jill’s encouragement, humor, and efforts to support me in finding my voice were an integral part not only of the song but of my life in Boston.

The song honors Jill’s bold legacy while forging a new path in women’s health advocacy through music.

Work in Progress

The song is still a work in progress and will be released by the end of summer! I’ll keep you updated!